As you can imagine getting Jordan on medication was not an easy step to take, especially since Jordan was having a decent summer. My mind instantly went into question mode:
- What if her anxiety was situational and school was the cause?
- Does she really need to be medicated?
- What if she experiences some of the possible side effects? (Which I advise not to read because, damn... Some of them sound worse than her original symptoms.)
- Will she become addicted and need to take these forever?
- Is it safe and what are the long term side effects?
- And last but not least: What if after all this, they don't help her??
For better or for worse, I have always tasted/tried any medication I gave to the kids before they took it. I was curious/worried/overly involved/a bit crazy ;). But I certainly wasn't going to try her Lexapro. How's that for a dose of reality? I was afraid to take a medication I was giving to my child. Because Lexapro is different. It's a medicine for the brain. Jordan's brain. To this day it still kind of freaks me out.
I mentioned to the PA that I felt it would be mean if we didn't try medication. She told me something that has stuck with me all these years. She said. "The best predictors of behaviors are found by looking at past behaviors." Basically, don't let one somewhat-mellow summer negate all your concerns and all Jordan's cries for help.
It was now time to wait, ask Jordan questions, watch her like a hawk, and hope for the best.