A Mixed Bag

All three of us went into Jordan's next therapy session and I left with my emotions all over the place. It's strange how a complete stranger's opinion can have an affect on a person. If someone were to ask the Before-Mom-Me, "Would you have taken child rearing advice from someone who didn't know your daughter?", my answer would have been a definite "No." But here I was holding on to each and every spoken word with hopeful anticipation.

And these words had an impact on me.  More than an impact. I would have paid anything, rearranged any schedule, and dropped all other responsibilities, if each session was going to be like this one. Those meaningful words were:

• "Jordan is a great kid."
• "I can't wait to see Jordan when she is 21, because she is going to do amazing things." --Hold onto this thought because Jordan is currently 20, and I'm still writing the crap out of my journal. :)
• "Everything in life is filled with both positives and negatives."
• "You both are doing all the right things." --Phew.

Um. If it's okay with you, could Jordan continue coming... forever. Actually, if you have any open slots available, could you maybe fit me in too?  I could use all the positivity I could get these days.

Not surprisingly, because, well, the subject of this blog is life, there were a few statements that weren't quite as confidence-building:

• "Some kids are born 'prickly' ".  --You can say that again.
• "Jordan most likely has OCPD, but this can't be diagnosed until she is 18 years old."   --Well that seems a bit ridiculous.  Does she have it, or does she not have it?  

All these diagnoses and rules. Apparently, you have to be 18 to have a personality disorder. So between the ages of 12 and 17, what are you, an angst filled teenager who is capable of slowly sucking the life from those around them?   (Cringe)

So we continued taking life day by day, meltdown by meltdown, therapy session by therapy session; all with the hope that our beautiful daughter get as close to self-acceptance, self fulfillment, and contentment as possible.

Thank you.

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