All three of us went into Jordan's next therapy session and I left with my emotions all over the place. It's strange how a complete stranger's opinion can have an affect on a person. If someone were to ask the Before-Mom-Me, "Would you have taken child rearing advice from someone who didn't know your daughter?", my answer would have been a definite "No." But here I was holding on to each and every spoken word with hopeful anticipation.
And these words had an impact on me. More than an impact. I would have paid anything, rearranged any schedule, and dropped all other responsibilities, if each session was going to be like this one. Those meaningful words were:
- "Jordan is a great kid."
- "I can't wait to see Jordan when she is 21, because she is going to do amazing things." --Hold onto this thought because Jordan is currently 20, and I'm still writing the crap out of my journal. :)
- "Everything in life is filled with both positives and negatives."
- "You both are doing all the right things." --Phew.
Not surprisingly, because, well, the subject of this blog is life, there were a few statements that weren't quite as confidence-building:
- "Some kids are born 'prickly' ". --You can say that again.
- "Jordan most likely has OCPD, but this can't be diagnosed until she is 18 years old." --Well that seems a bit ridiculous. Does she have it, or does she not have it?
So we continued taking life day by day, meltdown by meltdown, therapy session by therapy session; all with the hope that our beautiful daughter get as close to self-acceptance, self fulfillment, and contentment as possible.