Worst Night Ever

I will never forget this night.  It qualifies as one of the worst of my life. (and Jordan's too 😢) It happened a little over a month after the run-because-of-arm-flab sighting.

Here's how it all went down, word for word. (I'll warn you, be ready for some harsh, cringe-worthy language. This is uncomfortable for me to share, but mental health and family issues are uncomfortable and hard and messy. If I thought we were the only family who dealt with this type of stuff, I wouldn't be sharing. The thing is, I've heard and seen enough to know that by no means are we the only family affected by mental health issues.  Yep.  Us Too.

What the fuck!!!  So now Jordan is cutting!? And she has the nerve to come down and point at her arm yelling, "If things don't get better, this is only going to get worse!"  Fuck her.  I don't deserve this shit. I tried to be all patient with her- Blah Blah Blah.  Well fuck it. She is going back to her therapist. This is crap and I'm sick of it.
I quote, "Dad, if I don't get my phone and Tumbler back, this is only going to get worse."  And she points to her arm where she scratched/cut.  Are you kidding me??? If that's not manipulation, I don't know what is.  I have no idea how we got a kid like her.  We weren't perfect by any means, but we tried to be pretty consistent. And why was she so angry that she had to cut? Because she was talking on her phone to her best friend and her cousin, while on Tumbler, while also doing her math homework.  All at the same time. Grrr.  At this time Kayla asked Jordan if she could use the computer and she rudely replied, "No, I'm doing my homework!"  
So Adam told Jordan to give him her phone, and when she didn't, he tried to take it.  She then screamed into the phone how her parents hated her and told Adam to shut up! What the hell? Who the hell does she think she is?

Phew.

I'm going to stop here, before getting into my reaction.  As you can probably imagine, it wasn't pretty.  I was beyond pissed, scared, shocked and confused.

***Please don't forger that things are SO MUCH better now.  Jordan is a loving, wonderful, sensitive, intelligent, funny, and focused young woman, one who is willing to fight for the underdog and provide a voice for the voiceless. 😊***

Thank you.

Us Too