A few posts back I mentioned that Jordan's therapist said Jordan showed textbook signs of having Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD). The national Institute of Mental Health defines OCD as:
- A common, chronic and long-lasting disorder in which a person has uncontrollable, reoccurring thoughts (obsessions) and behaviors (compulsions) that he or she feels the urge to repeat over and over.
After that therapy session, Adam took it upon himself to do some research. For those of you who don't know Adam, he is very thorough when it comes to research. Beyond thorough. He found information describing Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder (OCPD). Wikipedia defines this as: (Ready for this?)
- A personality disorder characterized by a general pattern of concern with orderliness, perfectionism, excessive attention to details, mental and interpersonal control, and a need for control over one's environment, at the expense of flexibility, openness to experience, and efficiency. Workaholism and miserliness are also seen often in those with this personality disorder. Persons affected with this disorder may find it hard to relax, always feeling that time is running out for their activities, and that more effort is needed to achieve their goals. They may plan their activities down to the minute—a manifestation of the compulsive tendency to keep control over their environment and to dislike unpredictable events as elements beyond their control.
I realize this may be strange, but I actually felt a small sense of relief. Think about it. If this had a name, that meant other people must be afflicted with similar behaviors and tendencies. So we weren't alone. Jordan wasn't alone. It also indicated that perhaps we weren't the cause of her suffering. Typically we didn't blame ourselves or feel responsible, but it was still nice to have some reassurance.
So now Jordan was diagnosed with OCD, GAD, and possibly OCPD?? And how can someone have a personality disorder anyway? It's a personality. It's a person's entire being. How can that be a mental illness? It was all crap.